[ It's there, hovering like some black haze: a fear that she knows, but has never given voice to. That will not change today.
Ser Barristan said--he said he wanted to make certain--
Dany pushes it away. Even thinking such a thing legitimizes it, and she would have to be an utter fool to speak her deepest fear to anyone. ]
What if I do not know what I want? [ she demands of her. ] What if there is nothing else?
[ What if what she wants is destructive? What if she hurts Ahad, as she did once before, brutally and unintentionally? He has named her friend, but some part of her still does not know why. Her uncertainty has little to do with self-loathing, and all to do with knowing enough of herself. ]
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Ser Barristan said--he said he wanted to make certain--
Dany pushes it away. Even thinking such a thing legitimizes it, and she would have to be an utter fool to speak her deepest fear to anyone. ]
What if I do not know what I want? [ she demands of her. ] What if there is nothing else?
[ What if what she wants is destructive? What if she hurts Ahad, as she did once before, brutally and unintentionally? He has named her friend, but some part of her still does not know why. Her uncertainty has little to do with self-loathing, and all to do with knowing enough of herself. ]