( he won't have people with him if he keeps shoving the ones that matter away with both hands, in some willful attempt to protect them. still, whether he likes it or not, he knows it's true.
he can't go back. he can't be the person he was before. he'll be someone else, someone changed, whether he likes it or not, and he'll have to decide if that change is for the better.
change, or die. turns out the choice was made for him — all of Audentes had gone out of their way to keep him alive, and if he were going to choose death over hurting people, it's already too late for that, too late from when he put himself under instead of something more permanent. his choice is down to change and change alone, and he'll have to find a way to accept that. no matter how difficult it is proving to be. )
i guess i'm going to have to figure it out, then if i've figured out anything, it's how to keep moving.
( grieving, healing, forgiving, those he's got to work on. but somehow functioning after each and every devastation... well, he somehow keeps managing that. )
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he can't go back. he can't be the person he was before. he'll be someone else, someone changed, whether he likes it or not, and he'll have to decide if that change is for the better.
change, or die. turns out the choice was made for him — all of Audentes had gone out of their way to keep him alive, and if he were going to choose death over hurting people, it's already too late for that, too late from when he put himself under instead of something more permanent. his choice is down to change and change alone, and he'll have to find a way to accept that. no matter how difficult it is proving to be. )
i guess i'm going to have to figure it out, then
if i've figured out anything, it's how to keep moving.
( grieving, healing, forgiving, those he's got to work on. but somehow functioning after each and every devastation... well, he somehow keeps managing that. )