[ some things were easier to pretend to let go. he was an agent of chaos, a child of Asgard, not some cultists' plaything. the worst had been the mockery, the knowledge that he could've killed them, but held his hand to leave a message. there was no god more powerful than this. maybe he was never utilized in the same fashion that his memories say he utilized other people, and there's a sick feeling that comes with that when he allows his mind to wander, a boil in his belly that he covers with so many logical twists.
the worst thing about being someone who's good at convincing other people means that the same technique can be used on yourself. ]
[It's a losing fight. He knows that, recognizes that, but he can only hope that the slight pause means he got through even a tiny bit. With that, there's another small sigh.]
Good. [A pause.] ...I'm going to get back to checking things out but...you know. Network's always on.
[ there's a moment before he starts talking again. ]
There are times when the whole world seems dark. Perhaps it's a cursed test, or a push against fate, but whatever damnable cosmic force decides to act against me ...
I won't give up.
If we don't hold on in the direst of times, then those stories fall flat. Chin up, eh?
[That's...a little more reassuring. That sounds more like the Loki he knows and when he speaks there a tiny bit of relief in his tone. That slight amount of hope, actually.]
That's all you had to say. Chin up. [He's still going to worry a lot, but it's okay. They'll be fine.] Isn't that kind of the whole deal with our court anyway? We don't give up on things. We're going to be fine. [Eventually.]
You mean dig through all of the history of this world and pinpoint what, exactly, the divide is about and maybe how to fix it? I guess I could do that.
[ it's more that if it didn't work once, then he'd rather not do it again. if they're going to "fix" something, they may as well figure it out for themselves. ]
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the worst thing about being someone who's good at convincing other people means that the same technique can be used on yourself. ]
I won't give them the satisfaction.
[ he says after a moment. ]
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Good. [A pause.] ...I'm going to get back to checking things out but...you know. Network's always on.
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[ there's a moment before he starts talking again. ]
There are times when the whole world seems dark. Perhaps it's a cursed test, or a push against fate, but whatever damnable cosmic force decides to act against me ...
I won't give up.
If we don't hold on in the direst of times, then those stories fall flat. Chin up, eh?
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That's all you had to say. Chin up. [He's still going to worry a lot, but it's okay. They'll be fine.] Isn't that kind of the whole deal with our court anyway? We don't give up on things. We're going to be fine. [Eventually.]
And like we'd really let you give up anyway.
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[ little correction there. ]
Actually—I'm a bit curious. You said you're dedicating yourself to research, hm?
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I'm on it. I'll let you know what I find out.
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Good.
I've some preparations to make. Take care.
Toodles.