[There is no graceful way to do this, and so he is ungraceful about it, tensing up all of a sudden, lips pursing with fright.
This should be fine but what he is about to reference was uncomfortable. Still, Loki deserves to know the truth of all people. Even if the chain of events that lead to the very source of Asher's current happiness was unintentional, it had been started by this green-eyed harbinger of mischief, and at the very least he should thank him for it.]
I know I apologized for this over the network, but...
[He shakes his head repeatedly before continuing.]
I just wanted to say that I'm sorry. For what I said back there, about the whole gay thing-
[A public apology does not mean nearly as much as a private one.
If there is one lesson he has learned from being in a family of politicians, it is that.]
It was really dumb. I was being an A-hole, jackass-
[One hand gestures frustratedly at his side as the last word leaves his lips.]
his face is curiously blank, expression difficult to read beneath the long lines and drawn eyebrows that make him look like he's scheming all the time. they knit together in thought, just for a moment, as if he's trying to place exactly what Asher is talking about (he knows what it is, but he has to be a little bit dramatic about it). ]
You mortals ... [ he starts, though it sounds like he's talking to himself more than Asher. ] The multiverse is much bigger than you give it credit for: you've seen sights beyond earthly knowledge, saved world upon world, and yet you cannot break the limitations of your own cultural boundaries.
[ his face breaks into a sigh and he offers Asher a slightly teasing shrug. ]
Apology accepted, though I do hope that you'll learn to see outside of the confines of your own definitions.
[Loki may be a master of lies, but in this moment, he speaks nothing but the truth.]
But I haven't-
["I haven't saved anyone-"
That's not true. Ethan had made it out of there because he had chosen not to kill, and if the others had managed to find a cure, it was likely that the boy had recovered and even been sent back to live with any remaining family. Miranda and Cass are together again, safe on one of ALASTAIR's many other teams, because of something that he did with the help of others.
There is someone else whose life he saved, months ago, after running across the desert knowing full well that dying was a likely possibility.
The very topic of this conversation.]
No, you're right. And I am! Trying to do that, it's easier now...
[Because time makes it so.]
It's not that I actually thought stuff like that was gross, it was more that I was...
[ at the you're right Loki gives him a half smug Look that says of course I'm right. Loki had been through quite a lot, including his own jaunt through the multiverse. he was used to it in ways, and perhaps to unforgiving of those who could not adapt as quickly as he could. ]
Ah, yes. The turmoil of the revolt against culture. You made it out in one piece—congratulations.
[ and he means that with all earnest wishes, Asher. ]
As the patron god of certain mouth things, I bid you a good journey in your newfound sexual freedom.
roni im sorry for your inbox i am just sorry in general
If you want to be obvious about it. Probably some other things, too.
[ and he leave the whole "things" up to Asher's active imagination. ]
But I am said to have a silver tongue. Not just with the—[ blowjob motion. ]—but also the—[ he makes a "v" with his fingers and sticks his tongue through it.
[Asher claps his hands together in a celebratory type motion, then extending a closed fist in Loki's general direction, a sort of "pound it" type gesture.]
sure, Loki leans in casually, giving him a hearted fist bump. if it's one thing he can get behind, it's the freedom of someone's own desires, especially when it comes to their sexuality. ]
So, you do know what my next question is going to be, don't you?
[ even if that's Loki's biased opinion, Ahad is in the realm of attractive enough to be divine. even in a beauty of a team like Audentes, Ahad certainly had a presence that was difficult to ignore. ]
You'd best open your eyes, then. [ there's a little amusement mixed with the tease of offense. ] The timeline brings together the most curious of bedfellows, and that wouldn't exclude the two of us.
[ Asher gets a bit of a pointed look. ]
So, would you rather do top three, or tell me about this fellow of yours?
[There's a moment where Asher's breath hitches just loud enough to be heard, and he feels embarrassed all over again, like a deer caught in headlights.]
Um, well, pretty much everyone on this team is hot in their own way, don'tcha think?
[Lists like the one Loki is suggesting are old hat for an ex-fraternity brother like himself. If this conversation had taken place a mere few months ago, he would have been excited to participate and rank his fellow teammates from Hottest to Nottest. Things are different now, however, as no other Audentes member seems to hold a candle to the man he's come to call his boyfriend.
Even Asher understands that these feelings are somewhat irrational, which is why he becomes coquettish as those dangerous thought swim through his mind.]
I dunno, I'm just...
Pretty sure I wouldn't really be down to bone anybody else around here right about now, or anything like that, 'cause, y'know-
[groce]
I like him.
Edited (roni im so sorry i can't read... gomen at ur inbox) 2017-05-22 05:33 (UTC)
[ if Asher is anything, it's obvious. when he feels a certain way, he shows it on his sleeve for everyone to see. Loki's had years to curb his own expressions and accompanying emotions, turning them from raging discomfort and fury into something that teased amusement. ]
Yes, and everyone is talented in their own way. [ there's a glance up at Asher with a slightly raised brow. ] It's merely a hypothetical. Your preference in the weight of someone's attraction doesn't make them less of what they are.
[ he sighs and waves his hand. ]
But sure, I'll bite. Just give me your number one, then.
Loki's quiet non-response says it all. the expression on his face changes subtly, one eyebrow raising before the other joins it. he knows Kung Jin, and he knows that he's been in the same conversation as both of them. ]
...
Did you have an epiphany? From last I remember, there were some choice words being carelessly thrown around.
[And at that he has to look away, briefly, for he still feels ashamed.
There are several epiphanies Loki could be referring to.
Most likely, he means to reiterate that Asher's behavior and language was unacceptable, no matter the intention behind them. Not meaning to hurt people is not a good enough excuse for acting like an imbecile, and the Norse god is possibly seeking a confirmation of the understanding they had come to a while ago.]
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This should be fine but what he is about to reference was uncomfortable. Still, Loki deserves to know the truth of all people. Even if the chain of events that lead to the very source of Asher's current happiness was unintentional, it had been started by this green-eyed harbinger of mischief, and at the very least he should thank him for it.]
I know I apologized for this over the network, but...
[He shakes his head repeatedly before continuing.]
I just wanted to say that I'm sorry. For what I said back there, about the whole gay thing-
[A public apology does not mean nearly as much as a private one.
If there is one lesson he has learned from being in a family of politicians, it is that.]
It was really dumb. I was being an A-hole, jackass-
[One hand gestures frustratedly at his side as the last word leaves his lips.]
Turdpile.
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his face is curiously blank, expression difficult to read beneath the long lines and drawn eyebrows that make him look like he's scheming all the time. they knit together in thought, just for a moment, as if he's trying to place exactly what Asher is talking about (he knows what it is, but he has to be a little bit dramatic about it). ]
You mortals ... [ he starts, though it sounds like he's talking to himself more than Asher. ] The multiverse is much bigger than you give it credit for: you've seen sights beyond earthly knowledge, saved world upon world, and yet you cannot break the limitations of your own cultural boundaries.
[ his face breaks into a sigh and he offers Asher a slightly teasing shrug. ]
Apology accepted, though I do hope that you'll learn to see outside of the confines of your own definitions.
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But I haven't-
["I haven't saved anyone-"
That's not true. Ethan had made it out of there because he had chosen not to kill, and if the others had managed to find a cure, it was likely that the boy had recovered and even been sent back to live with any remaining family. Miranda and Cass are together again, safe on one of ALASTAIR's many other teams, because of something that he did with the help of others.
There is someone else whose life he saved, months ago, after running across the desert knowing full well that dying was a likely possibility.
The very topic of this conversation.]
No, you're right. And I am! Trying to do that, it's easier now...
[Because time makes it so.]
It's not that I actually thought stuff like that was gross, it was more that I was...
[Hoo boy. This shouldn't be so hard.]
Figurin' out some things. About me... I guess.
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Ah, yes. The turmoil of the revolt against culture. You made it out in one piece—congratulations.
[ and he means that with all earnest wishes, Asher. ]
As the patron god of certain mouth things, I bid you a good journey in your newfound sexual freedom.
roni im sorry for your inbox i am just sorry in general
Wait. What mouth things?
[don't say it out loud, p l e a s e-]
You mean like-
[DID U JUST PANTOMIME THE BLOWJOB GESTURE
ASHER WILLIAM MILLSTONE, I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU]
its ok its for mouth things
[ and he leave the whole "things" up to Asher's active imagination. ]
But I am said to have a silver tongue. Not just with the—[ blowjob motion. ]—but also the—[ he makes a "v" with his fingers and sticks his tongue through it.
you asked for this, Asher. ]
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Right on, homie.
[Asher claps his hands together in a celebratory type motion, then extending a closed fist in Loki's general direction, a sort of "pound it" type gesture.]
Me too.
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sure, Loki leans in casually, giving him a hearted fist bump. if it's one thing he can get behind, it's the freedom of someone's own desires, especially when it comes to their sexuality. ]
So, you do know what my next question is going to be, don't you?
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In response to Loki's words, however, he appears confused.]
Uuuuuh, no?
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[ Loki parrots, the word easy and smooth coming from his lips. ]
I want to know your top three on Audentes, of course. Past and present.
[ perhaps he'll be offended if he's not on there, let's find out. ]
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You mean like, top three hottest, right?
[To be fair, Audentes really is quite a good looking batch- It's too bad their personalities are mostly garbage.]
Like, the bae-ist of the bae?
[A S H E R
#audentesmostbae]
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[ now that you have an unbiased opinion now, Asher. ]
Don't overthink it, it's just a quick evaluation of your taste.
[ there's a smile in his voice, an obvious tease, regardless Loki seems pleased. ]
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[this is so he can avoid the topic of just how blue jason todd's eyes are, because that shit's whack af]
But what I do know is that mah booboo thannnng-
[c e a s e]
Is definitely one of the hottest guys I've ever seen.
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If he's hotter than Ahad I'll eat my hat.
[ even if that's Loki's biased opinion, Ahad is in the realm of attractive enough to be divine. even in a beauty of a team like Audentes, Ahad certainly had a presence that was difficult to ignore. ]
Don't think that will get you out of it, either.
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is that... the guy in moby dick
who chases the white whale... with the one leg]
I'm sorry, who?
[*nope, that's captain ahab]
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Really.
[ there's a slight inflection to his voice, curious and possibly just a little judgmental. ]
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I'm serious, dude.
[This is a group of 80. He's aware that he does not know everyone, although that makes the team feel even smaller.]
I have no idea who you're talkin' about.
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[ Asher gets a bit of a pointed look. ]
So, would you rather do top three, or tell me about this fellow of yours?
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Um, well, pretty much everyone on this team is hot in their own way, don'tcha think?
[Lists like the one Loki is suggesting are old hat for an ex-fraternity brother like himself. If this conversation had taken place a mere few months ago, he would have been excited to participate and rank his fellow teammates from Hottest to Nottest. Things are different now, however, as no other Audentes member seems to hold a candle to the man he's come to call his boyfriend.
Even Asher understands that these feelings are somewhat irrational, which is why he becomes coquettish as those dangerous thought swim through his mind.]
I dunno, I'm just...
Pretty sure I wouldn't really be down to bone anybody else around here right about now, or anything like that, 'cause, y'know-
[groce]
I like him.
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Yes, and everyone is talented in their own way. [ there's a glance up at Asher with a slightly raised brow. ] It's merely a hypothetical. Your preference in the weight of someone's attraction doesn't make them less of what they are.
[ he sighs and waves his hand. ]
But sure, I'll bite. Just give me your number one, then.
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[He doesn't really mind being this way. Sure, it's not helpful in a courtroom, but it's one thing that he doesn't feel the need to apologize for.]
And uh... Jin?
[The words are accompanied by a slight craning of the neck and a timid flutter of the lashes.]
Kung Jin?
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Loki's quiet non-response says it all. the expression on his face changes subtly, one eyebrow raising before the other joins it. he knows Kung Jin, and he knows that he's been in the same conversation as both of them. ]
...
Did you have an epiphany? From last I remember, there were some choice words being carelessly thrown around.
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There are several epiphanies Loki could be referring to.
Most likely, he means to reiterate that Asher's behavior and language was unacceptable, no matter the intention behind them. Not meaning to hurt people is not a good enough excuse for acting like an imbecile, and the Norse god is possibly seeking a confirmation of the understanding they had come to a while ago.]
Yeah, I did.
[Amidst other things.]